December to Forget - Ekoh, Kat Kalling

Feel that I should probably go back home

Probably got a few calls I should make right now and say

I’m sorry, I never meant for this

But I’ve been struggling this whole year trying to fit, it’s like

We just try to be happy and time goes

Trying to navigate through these highs and lows

But I’ve been through some real shit and it shows

From the drinks to the drugs to the love to the vote and

I don’t really know what happened to life

But I been feeling like it all isn’t treating me right

And it’s another holiday, yeah here we go

And I’ll be nice to these people that I really don’t know, but

The whole time I’m like

You probably voted for Trump, you’re probably gonna hold this goddamned line up

and

I’m just trying to get this coffee and bounce

Star Wars Rogue One it’s in the theaters right now

Ay, and I just wanna see Vader

Had a year full of haters

Man, see I’m on one now and I’m just sick of the games and all the bullshit

coming from these kids up on the internet

Like I don’t really get it, feeling like it’s in again

Man how fucking stupid can these people up on twitter get

Everybody talking 'bout how you hate these Kardashians, made another one famous

How the hell can I at least try to be happy when the whole world is falling

apart

Now I have to see these goddamn girls up on Instagram with their tits out like,

«Yo, chasing dreams fam!!»

So jaded

All my friends out getting faded

And I can’t blame 'em, man

I don’t know if it’s me but I’ve never felt so lost at Christmas time

My mind is rather frightful

Oh and I’ve been feeling spiteful

I’m building myself up tall

Just to fall, just to fall, just to fall

I’m looking for love and likes

I get my social media hype

I’ve got a void to fill

Will I ever, I ever feel real?

Can we stop this?

Man, we lost Prince

We still talk about this Kanye West shit

And everybody’s still pissed about these Starbucks cups

I can barely pay my rent this month, man

Tryna love never felt more divided

And I don’t even have the feeling that I get when I’m writing

I’m fighting off all the depression that I get in all the later months

And all I want for Christmas to be able to shake it off

Oh girl please, what you want now?

Relationship for the holidays 'cause you’re lonely?

Side to side if I’m getting the odds

I want an Ariana Grande and Nicki Minaj

And I’ll be sneaking from the roof down the chimney slide

And I’ll be underneath the tree with my dick in a box, yeah

Probably never get that radio play, but that’s all right man I’m the one to

blame

Oh, maybe things really get that bad

In fact car still runs and I’m pushing the gas

The last songs I put out got people going bananas

And I’m tryna get those people to believe in me like Santa Claus

Tryna get along, everybody getting it wrong

Feeling disconnected like Macaulay Culkin and his mom

Where’s that Christmas spirit, kid?

I guess my heart’s four times too small and shit, right?

Aye, yeah please believe

It’s getting more lit than a Christmas tree

And I wanna be the man that I need to be

But I’m getting so sick of being me, so

Aye, gotta go back home

I gotta few calls I I’mma make right now and say I’m sorry

I never meant for this, but I lost the idea of what Christmas is

My mind is rather frightful

Oh and I’ve been feeling spiteful

I’m building myself up tall

Just to fall, just to fall, just to fall

I’m looking for love and likes

I get my social media hype

I’ve got a void to fill

Will I ever, I ever feel real?