I Can't Trust My Mind - Derek Pope, Berner

And the wheels still spinning, tank on empty

On my entry everyone repenting

I don’t like most folks I’m just friendly

Film my life but it’s real no pretending

And my demons only wanna see the ending

Shit offends me

Never be wolf once you been sheep

What you feast on, that’s my lunch meat

Put a landmine in my front seat

They don’t haunt me now they just hunt me

We don’t chop them down we just burn trees

Work like birdseed when you look like ten feet

Ten speed

I can’t trust my mind

It does whatever for its kind

It’s like there’s someone else inside

Who’d kill me just to stay alive

It’s a struggle just to smile

I been blind to the bullshit for a while

Footballs got me mellow but my mind run a mile

Let me be somewhere low key chilling with my child

Fame make friends turn to enemies and it’s sad

Throw a stack on a bag make a hundred thirty grand

And I’m still down

We tipping bottles for the lost ones

I’m just killing time until that call come

Plant some cook by my tombstone

Young, rich, and grumpy yea we eating 'til the food gone

I just put my whole crew on

Twist a cap, pull a little pill out to chew on (goodnight)

I go numb again

Big head weigh me down, but that’s my only friend

Door on auto-lock, hop, hit the water walk

For a foreign drop top who don’t talk a lot

If I bottle pop

That ain’t drip that’s a script with no follow-ups

This a zip, lemonade but it got a punch

Built it all from below where it’s bottom up

Still it’s not enough

I can’t trust my mind

It does whatever for its kind

It’s like there’s someone else inside

Who’d kill me just to stay alive

Can’t trust my mind