A Discouraged Believer - Decembre Noir

Darkness!

Emptiness!

Ruthlessness!

I walk through a storm inside my soul!

In darkness

My twin — emptiness!

Endless ruthlessness!

I walk through a storm inside my soul!

I drown inside this innermost hell

Lost and captive in a human cell

Grief pearls sparkle in these eyes

Slowly I shrink and everything dies

I am unable to change my fate

When all my hope turns to hate

I shall hurt myself for salvation

Since I breathe life’s damnation

Down in a hole — I walk through a storm inside my soul

Too many bastards reach for my young mind

Inside the filthy selfish streets of the mankind

With an abysmal disgust and wrath I run away

I know on dread’s playground I can never stay

There is a darkness anchored deep inside my heart

I can’t break the tide chains before I’m torn apart

This narrow cold embrace is another kind of pain

In every time I beg for an end of that torture in vain

I am the discouraged believer by God’s goodness

Embedded inside an ugly farewell’s ruthlessness

I can’t longer depend from my isolation’s misery

In desperation I search for the caress of eternity

Darkness!

Emptiness!

Ruthlessness!

I walk through a storm inside my soul!

In darkness

My twin — emptiness!

Endless ruthlessness

I walk through a storm inside my soul!

The shadow of the future covers my morning sun

A new day in hell has just begun

One thought kills inside my sleepy brain

I can’t give my life for all — I always feel the same

There is a darkness anchored deep inside my heart

I can’t break the tide chains before I’m torn apart

This narrow cold embrace is another kind of pain

In every time I beg for an end of that torture in vain

I stare into the abyss

Behind the gates of the demise

Into flames of nothingness

I hear the scarred soul cries