Something New - Dead to Me

There’s something new in my way

I thought about him all that day

Sitting at home, dying alone

Then again, who am I to say?

We both know I’ve been down that same road

I know it gets lonely when that phone rings

It’s the last thing you wanna hear

I should know better by now

But after all, I’m so tired of explaining

All the things I should have said

I secretly always knew

But that news came way too soon

I was sitting at home and wondering why

I couldn’t even look you in the eye

I heard all those things that your father told you

You know it’s not right, but taking your own life

Might be the only thing that you see through

I should know better by now

But after all, I’m so tired of explaining

All the things I should have said

It’s alright to complain

It’s alright to feel pain

I thought I had the answers to all of my problems

With one thing but it’s always the same

I go in one door and right out the other

I’m left with me and James and a million little pieces

It’s not that I want them all

To be sorry when I’m gone

I’m just tired of waking up

I’m gonna try the pills tonight

I’m gonna try and do it my way

And watch it all fall apart

I should know better by now

But after all, I’m so tired of explaining

All the things I should have said