Libriyum - Days N Daze

Loaded to brim with Librium

Hallucinating in some retro tele nova

Just using worse drugs to quit the drugs

When using to stay comfortable enough

Used to be I’d drink myself through every twist and turn

But now I’ve grown up

A bit

And seen some shit

Made my mistakes

I’ve lost and won

What did I learn?

LALALALALALA

OHHHHHH

Holy shit I’m not dependent anymore

It’s fucking weird

I’ve been an addict for a decade

Now I can see the world so clearly

And it’s terrifying

My mind it feels rejuvenated

All those thoughts I drown out

For so long are bubbling back up

And their driving me crazy

Oh, look now I can feel again

The numbness has evaded

How real life it’s fine and dandy

No, it’s not I fucking hate this

Is this really how all these sober people live

Life sober is over stimulating

Piece of shit

This feelings hell and boring normalcy

Why did I even quit?

Oh, yeah that’s right I almost died

So, I suppose I’ll give this sober train a ride

At least until I yank out all my teeth

Does this boredom never cease?

Reality is a disease

Oh, lord I need fucking drink

LALALALA OHHH.

I sit in slippers on a dog hair coated sofa

Staring at the ceiling contemplating god

Why I numb myself and what I’m so afraid of

All while trying to ignore these racing thoughts

I’ve a never-ending nagging

Need to figure out the point

Or maybe there just isn’t one

We’re all just maladroit

Moronic Meaningless abominations

Hurdling towards an empty everlasting blank oblivion

The clarity is killing me

But so were the drugs

Why can I not just exist happily

Without being numb?

Is there something I’m missing

Which others have found?

If you’ve answers inform me

I’m being drug down by the weight of unknowing

It’s really bummin' me out

I’ve been to hell and back

And seen so much

Beneath the heavens

So, what did I learn

Left to my own devices

And stripped of all my vices

I possess a tendency

To overthink and analyze things

But I don’t think it worthless

To contemplate our purpose

Now that our society

Appears to have become so thoughtless

It seems especially important

That we take a sec to gather some perspective

And remember that we’re all just specs

Of dust within a vast expanse

Created out of happenstance

Diluted from the same initial spark

So, let’s party down

LALALALA OHHH.