My Disguise - Currents

There is nothing like the unfamiliar air

It brings me back to when this all made sense

Bitter, depressed;

staring back at death

I’m pushing myself to the edge over what happens next

The pain, the cost;

destruction of the thought

To take account for everything that I’ve lost

The change, we sought, compelling us to rot

I never said I’m the only one

Fight till there’s nothing left

You have much more to give

You owe it to yourself, you owe it to yourself

There’s nothing wrong with asking for help

In my head, I rewind

Falling away, from my disguise

Am I dead or lost in time?

I’m trying to read through the feelings that lead me to the light

We say we feel alright

While we starve to feel alive

In my head, I rewind

Falling away, away, away from my disguise

There’s nothing there, to hold me back

I’m not defined by the things I lack

I often think of the nights I stared into your eyes

And you would tell me what it’s like to want to die

I have the heart to forgive, but how could I forget

The way you shut me out, when I chose to let you in?

Fight till there’s nothing left

You have much more to give

You owe it to yourself, you owe it to yourself

There’s nothing wrong with asking for help

In my head, I rewind

Falling away, from my disguise

Am I dead or lost in time?

I’m trying to read through the feelings that lead me to the light

We say we feel alright

While we starve to feel alive

In my head, I rewind

Falling away, away, away from my disguise

Fight, though we struggle, I trust

That this war is not the end

My curse is not my crutch

My curse is not my crutch

I often think of the nights I stared into your eyes

And you would tell me what it’s like to want to die

But now I know how you felt when you recalled those days

You almost left this place, I finally feel your pain

The pain, the cost;

destruction of the thought

To take account for everything that I’ve lost

The change, we sought, compelling us to rot

I never said I’m the only one

We say we feel alright

While we starve to feel alive

In my head I rewind

Falling away, away, away from my disguise