Ink - Cubbiebear

This is my autumn, this is my introduction to winter

This is my holiday juggle of morals to face paint a sinner

This is my battle of beautiful struggles, and card up the sleeve «I love you"s

An earthquake-jenga-head-fuck, making cuddling so fucking uncomfortable

This is a missed breath from a misled kiss meant to fake emotions belong

My insecurity button that helps me pretend nothing’s wrong

Hiding painting’s reflections, hidings affections to fight them in

And convince you to plant the seed of a flower that wouldn’t grow in my

environment

I just wanted to feel normal, important, warm

I wanted to feel cozy when it rained instead of depressed by a storm

Wanted a hand to hold when my heart skips, maybe worth one tear in your eye

I just wanted one person to love me so I wouldn’t be so afraid to die

So when I sleep I rest, not a psyche to fuck

But a comfort to kill anxiety so I can swallow without it getting stuck

I just wanted to breathe so I pretended to be

Another reason you’ll never learn to trust, or forgive me

Breathe, just remember to breathe…

I just wanted to breathe, you ever forget to breathe?

I forget to breathe, I forget to breathe, I forget to…

This is the insecurity I choose to live in

This is the compulsive life I choose to obsess over whether forgiven

My anxiety forces lying sprees to cover up who I am

'Cause I don’t lie to others, just myself, I don’t feel like a real man

I got youth problems, I’m stubborn, I try to fit in other people’s molds

To the point I can’t be myself and every love I’ve felt feels old

It’s hard 'cause everyone’s numb -they built walls up to put their back on them

They suck virginity to pledge youth, I got hair on my face I don’t know how it

happened

But I loved you, all of you, everyone I touched

I fall for nothing, left with nothing just to believe in your trust

I loved you, I loved you, I loved a stranger and a player

A forgetful fuck pecking at danger, at danger at…

You will never be it, you will, no, no, no…

I will not be another you can kill it, so kill it and let go

You wanna kick me while I’m down, stand on my back and be proud

Well who’s the monster now, bitch?

Who’s the monster now?

Breathe, just remember to breathe.

I just want to breathe, I just wanted to breath.

You ever forget to breath?

I forget to breathe, I forget to breathe, I forget to breathe, I forgot to…

…Breathe

I forget to breathe, I forgot to breathe

No more, no more, no more, no more

Every breath is worthless, it means nothing anymore

Chop me down, go ahead I see right through

I wasted tears, I wasted innocence on you

I remember, I remember, I remember yesterday

I remember, I remember, I remember you would say

Forgive me, forgive me, forgive me it’s too late

Forgive me, forgive me, forgive me it’s too late-

-for butterflies, they flew away when you trapped them with a kiss

Why would you pluck the thorns from beauty and leave nothing to protect with

This is ridiculous, it’s disgust or mistrust, maybe cupid missed us

Or the arrow hit you so sharply the pain makes you pissed off

You can break for your fake piece, an artificial whole

You can’t erase the bruises on your neck from them ten foot poles

This is my autumn, my life, my turn, my space we…

Butter me up for love, black black black heart baby

Breathe, just remember to breathe

I just want to breathe

I forget to breathe, I forgot to breathe

I forgot to breathe, I forgot to breathe, I forgot to breathe

I forgot to …

Breathe

I forgot to breathe, I forgot to breathe

Who’s the monster now, who’s the monster now?

Who’s the monster now, who’s the monster now?

Who’s the monster now, who’s the monster now?

Who’s the monster now, who’s the monster now?

You can’t touch me, I could care less about your love

I grew on strength all cause you couldn’t fathom, strictly you picked on what I

was

And built up, phony fake voice tone and all crazy

«Forgive me, forgive me» black heart baby

Don’t please me, you’re see-through

I’ll break free, I’ll break you

No more mocking and blocking mental pictures, pretending you’re innocent

No more trusting stupid fucks, my arms are closed, you’re never forgiven

Breathe, I forgot to breathe, I just want to breathe

I forget to breathe, who the fuck forgets to breathe?

I forgot to breathe, you made me forget to breathe

Made me forget to breathe, made me forget to breathe

How do you forget to breathe?

I forgot to breathe, I forgot to breathe

You made me forget to breathe, I forgot to breathe

I forgot to breathe, I forgot to breathe

I forgot to… breathe, I forgot to… breathe

I forgot to breathe…