Reguarding Elizabeth (Save Me) - Chino XL

I’m high feeling like I’m walking in clouds

And seeing faces staring at me as I move through the crowd

Feeling like the whole world just took a wickedness vow

Ridiculous how hate has replaced all religiousness now

Stop off in front of a church, I kneel and I bow

Black rosary for all the pain I kept in my file

Never reciprocated all the hurt that my mom allowed

For happened to me, the amount of tears I shed could have drowned

Now all I want to do is make my little girls proud

And pray my death is quiet but my funeral’s loud

When I’m feeling inspired reaching my inner child

I witness my illusion shatter with no angels around

I’m hoping this explains why my hate and my anger’s abound

Abused and threatened with death if I had dared made a sound

Knocked to the floor, silently curled up on the ground

I guess blood’s a rite of passage on the way to the crown

Save me

I think I’m going crazy

So won’t you just pray for me

I’m falling deeper than I’ve gone before

Maybe

I’m thinking that maybe

If somebody prays for me

I won’t fall deeper than I’ve gone before

I think I’m losing it man

I knew she loved me but it wasn’t the time

There was so much left for me to do, so far from my prime

In hindsight, I probably should have sacrificed, wouldn’t mind

Bedroom apartment was leaking, I was out of my mind

I was young, ain’t know who I was, how could I respond?

That abortion went against my principles, am I wrong?

Gritty like selling my spirit out just in different forms

Three months in the stomach, that fetus knew my voice when I talked

Yeah, it was her decision true, but I should have fought

And having beautiful children later enhances the thought

I should’ve never wavered or caved in or stayed in a

I hated all things living, my descension and fall

Apologies in the song but I swear I was lost

Hope it wasn’t painful when your little light was cut off

As my ex lay there bleeding, started feeling remorse

I pray their forgiveness for me as I’m hugging this cross

I see her outside playing now and then

She’s got bruises on her arms like she fell off a swing

Paid it no mind, I’m blind, guess it is what it is

Plus I was having my own drama with the mom of my kids

Ironically she became one of my daughter’s friends

Such a tiny little thing, her name was Elizabeth

Her family stayed right down the hall from where we lived

Sometimes I thought I heard her screaming, man these walls are thin

Tried to sleep right after tucking my princess in

Staring at the ceiling, know I need to mind my own biz

But flashbacks of my own childhood would spin

Of my stepfather’s abuse, this little girl’s innocent

I seen her father one time, he’s a cop and a pig

Her mom an ex-beauty queen turned heroin fiend

One day at the pool my family wanted to swim

I seen Elizabeth there with a bruise on her chin

A cut on her ribs by a mark on her chest

She cried do you even have to ask one question, who did this?

I seen the fear through her eyes and scratched retina lid

Man I was gone in the head and I just couldn’t sit

I flipped

You might think that I am crazy

But I can’t let them hurt this baby

I kicked in the door with no gun in my hand

You want to fight somebody mother fucker, you fight a man

I’m in prison now for what I did

Her dad can never hurt Elizabeth again cause he’s dead