Cavities - Casey

You were convulsing in the next room, so I lay awake in bed

And prayed to a God that I don’t believe in so that he may keep you safe

I could hear our father’s fingers work their way into the wood of your door

frame

Mother shaking, as your eyes rolled back into your head again

Just as we thought death would prevail, febrile response gave way to pale

Cavities to fingernails, anxiety has left me frail

But I left then how I feel now

Despite the detriment you’ve faced, it is your warmth that made me proud

And though I barely remember, it was you who soothed my ache

In the depth of my depression, I thought my life was mine to take

I am forever in your debt for things that you could never say

All the love that I have felt, you gave with no intentions to take

I am as the moon, any affection that my glow is the subject of belongs to you

For I am nothing more than a reflection of you

And your love