Apparition - Carson

I’m keeping a secret from myself

I’ve been fighting with myself for weeks

Get a hold of all my thoughts

Erase them

For they don’t mean a thing

I’ve been learning how to push them aside

It’s killin my self esteem

But I gotta do what is right

Cause these feelings they don’t mean a thing

O I’ll take them all back right now

O Woah but I don’t know how

What am I to do?

What have I gotten my self into?

I’ve gotta figure this out

Seems like there’s no way out

What am I to do?

What have I gotten my self into?

I’ve gotta figure this out

Seems like there’s no way out

From this

The repercussions of these words

They could easily break me in two

I’m getting a hold of all my thoughts

Like if you only knew

I am taking a drink of my pride

And tossing these thoughts away

Cause I gotta do what is right

And these feelings they don’t mean a thing

O atleast that’s what I’ll tell my self

O woah

What am I to do?

What have I gotten my self into?

I’ve gotta figure this out

Seems like there’s no way out

What am I to do?

What have I gotten my self into?

I’ve gotta figure this out

Seems like there’s no way out

From this

At least that’s what I’ll tell myself

I said at least that’s what I’ll tell myself

At least that’s what I’ll tell myself

At least that’s what I’ll tell myself (Background vocals)

What am I to do?

What have I gotten my self into?

I’ve gotta figure this out

Seems like there’s no way out

What am I to do?

What have I gotten my self into?

I’ve gotta figure this out

Seems like there’s no way out

What am I to do?

What have I gotten my self into?

I’ve gotta figure this out

Seems like there’s no way, no way out