Trying - Bully

Oh, I can’t get out

Invisible handcuffs locked on me

Been praying for my period all week

And relief that I just can’t see

I question everything

My focus, my figure, my sexuality

And how much it matters or why it would mean anything

I can’t keep it together

I’ve been better

I’ve been thinking about it every night

I’m trying, I am

I’m trying, I am

Trying to hide from my mind, I am

Trying all the time, I am

Trying to hide from my mind, I am

Trying, trying

Why am I?

I can’t get out

There’s no flawless education, just a stupid degree

The feeling of growing so far from myself

I can’t reach, I can’t reach, I can’t reach

So I brush it off, 'cause I want it bad

And there’s no dusting up

When you want like that

Here’s a ship, there’s a wreck

Better keep yourself in check 'cause

All these loaded questions gonna eat you alive

I’m trying, I am

I’m trying, I am

Trying to hide from my mind, I am

Trying all the time, I am

Trying to hide from my mind, I am

Trying, trying

Why am I?

If it counts for anything

I didn’t want to

I’m just looking for clarity

To help me get through

If you’re set in your ways

What can I do?

Ease up so that I can break it down for you

Can’t feed a beast you

Leave unleashed

It’ll come right back to you

I’m trying

Trying to hide from my mind, I am

Trying all the time, I am

Trying to hide from my mind, I am

Trying, trying

Why am I?

Why am I?

Why, why?

Why am I?