The End - Blue October

Here alone, standing barefoot in our lawn,

Worms squeezing their way through my toes

Tonight that’s how it goes.

I’m at your window kneeling quiet,

I thought at least I’d maybe try to get your head right

Get your heart right

«Let him go!»

Then through the glass I see your dress fall to the floor

As he embraces every inch of you

The woman I adore.

I can’t believe the way you’re bending

Can’t believe this neverending moaning asking him for more

I heard you begging him for more

How far will I go To make it feel right?

«Come home»

I have to fix this on my own

Replace my heart,

Cause I’m convinced mine broke the day I let us end

Replace my heart,

I don’t wanna live by coping, I’m done with hoping… end

I creeped in close enough to see the way he touched her,

From her feet across her knees, inside her sweetest spot

he pleased and pleased her.

I turned around and tried to take control, but no control was capable

It was a centerfold of how less than low can possibly go.

I squeezed the life into my brain

Like pushing knives into a vein

I’ve gotta get, I’ve gotta get, I said I’ve gotta get inside

So to the back window I crawl in silent standing in the darkness

Of my living room, my living room

This used to be my home

How far will I go To make it feel right?

«Come home»

I’m moving forward to the bedroom door

Replace my heart

Cause I’m convinced mine broke the day I let us end

Replace my heart

I don’t wanna live by coping, I’m done with hoping… end

I turn the doorknob with two fingers to be slow

Enough to sneak into the room among the corner darkness gloom

I had to see this happening.

He pushed himself so deep inside her clapping rang and bounced off every wooden

walled room

And that’s when all went silent blank except the color red

As I walked calmly numbing paralyzed beside the bed

I said «I know I’m not allowed to be here.

I just had to see

How good this new man really fucks you.

Cause you both been fucking me.»

«So now I planned the last thing you can both do as a pair

I tie both blindfolds tight around your fucking eyes to blind your stare

I don’t want to alarm you, but I figured we could end this in what seems easy

quick and painless

So I’ll get down to business

I choose you first, there’s a gun, its at your head

So laugh at me just one more time but keep your face inside the bed

You sit and watch me while I do this shit and learn from what I’ve said.»

I cocked the pistol pulled the trigger, and all I saw was red

Then the screaming oh the screaming

It’s nice to see you scared

Of such a weak and stupid husband

Who knows you never really cared

I’ll leave you with a question that I need to hear from your head

Was all this worth it knowing u have just seconds left to live?

Now think about your answer, laying face down on the bed

I cocked the pistol pulled the trigger and all I saw was red

I gently stroke her arm as she lies lifeless on her back

Then placed the barrel in my mouth

All I saw was black.