Holiday Break - Beacon Light

Seen a lot of storms and a lot of rain

Seen a lot of smiles trying to cover pain

And I can’t deny it

I can’t disguise it

There’s no way to hide it

I need a Holiday break (need a holiday break)

From all this pain

All I know is these thoughts won’t go away

I need a Holiday break (need a holiday break)

From all this pain

And I’m trying, trying to find a way

(I'm about to break)

Dear Christmas past, I’m writing about your trash

Remember nights crying

My family was stripped to rags

Instead of getting together

We were simply getting severed

They said you’d make it better

I hope you reading this letter

I know you that you’re not

I know that you lie

I know you say that you hold 'em together

But then you fold when you flop

I’m gone

I don’t even wanna sing that song

I hear you lying through your teeth

And that won’t bring back Mom

She celebrating somewhere else

I put the pain on the shelf

And roll the green in an L

That’s a Christmas Tree

Light it up

Trying to get my peace

I can’t find it

Temporary fix that weed

The next day comes then it’s back to square one

And all these squares only gunnin' to kill my lungs

Inhale, exhale, pain when I cough

Trying to bring myself back up but I still fall

Sincerely, me

I can’t deny it

And I can’t disguise it

There’s no way to hide it

I need a Holiday break

I need a Holiday break (need a holiday break)

From all this pain

All I know is these thoughts won’t go away

I need a Holiday break (need a holiday break)

From all this pain

And I’m trying, trying to find a way

(I need a Holiday break)

Dear Christmas Present

I’m writing this cause I’m better

And I don’t need a sedative

I hope you get this letter

And I know that the future might see me this year

And hopefully I won’t be covered in my tears

But until then let me tell you where I been

Yeah it’s been a few years since we talked

Since then I been movin' on

I found hope in something greater than songs

Something greater than all this money and the fame and the drugs

It’s God, and that may seem odd

Cuz I know when I wrote you before we were at odds

But listen real quick

What I found is when I called upon the Christ

He gave forgiveness, love, hope, life

I don’t need another gift, no spliff, no memory or nostalgia

Could make me feel like I do now

So now I’m on ten, aww yeah the Christ took my failures

And gave me hope that never drowns

I’m walking on water now I feel like Peter did

Well I guess that’s a frozen lake

I do live in Michigan

Hell is not an option

Cause I got Him

Rather He got me

And now I drop hymns

So I’ma sing one now

I was down and out

But Christ took me and He washed away those stains

That’s a Holiday Break

A Holiday Break

Only He can come and take away your pain

That’s a Holiday Break

A Holiday Break

Oh find Him, find Him, find a way

(Break)

Sincerely, me