Filled Up With Night - Bambara

Huh!

I keep pacing around my room

But it doesn’t help

And I grind my teeth

And I tear my shirt

And I grind and I tear

And I, had that dream again

Where we stood in the park frowning in the light

Then the sun went black

And the sky turned into night

The stars cut us up like butcher knives

Outside my window

Those birds chirp like camera shutters

The kind with the feathers your dad would collect

Their gray shit drowns the all statues around here

But I forgot what they’re called

But you know I walked by the place today

Where I broke my fist on the bathroom wall

And you threw up into the sink

On the corner of some avenue and some street

I don’t know

I don’t know

Huh!

I keep writhing around in my bed

But it doesn’t help

And I bite my lip

And I crack my knuckles

And I bite and I crack

And I

I had that dream again

We were fucking in the back seat of your car

Then the sun blew out

And the sky filled up with night

The stars fell like hail and crushed our spines

When I was falling asleep

I heard the voice of a girl

I couldn’t quite tell who she was

Over the sound of all the buzzing

But she said my name

And she brushed my hair with her sturdy fingers

Bees stung my neck and they felt like lips

She kissed my neck and it felt like bees but

Felt like her name started with a T

I don’t know

I don’t know