Resignation - Astpai

«oh cold, hard earth,

was it you that i’ve missed?

did i long for the taste

of the ground i just kissed?

i know i made this choice,

a long time ago,

it’s just too hard to realise,

that i can’t let you go.

i didn’t dare to imagine,

how this distant choice of mine

could be total satisfaction

and insanity combined."