Light of Some Kind - Ani DiFranco

I wish i didn’t have this nervous laugh

I wish i didn’t say half the stuff i say

I wish i could just learn to cover my tracks

I guess i’m not concerned about getting away

'cause every time i try to hold my tongue

It slips like a fish from a line

They say if you want to play

You should learn how to play dumb

I guess i can’t bring myself to waste your time

'cause we both know what i’ve been doing

I’ve been intentionally bad at lying

You’re the only boy i ever let see through me

And i hope you beleive me when i say i’m trying

And i hope i never improve my game

Yeah i’d rather have these things weighing on my mind

And at the end of this tunnel of guilt and shame

There must be a light of some kind

There must be a light of some kind

I must have blown a fuse or something

Cause it was so dark in my mind

She came up to me with the sweetest face

And she was holding a light of some kind

And i still think of you as my boyfriend

I don’t think this is the end of the world

But i think maybe you should follow my example

And go meet yourself a really nice girl

'cause we both know..

In the end the world comes down to just a few people

But for you it comes down to one

But no one ever asked me if i thought i could be

Everything to someone

There’s a crowd of people harboured in every person

There are so many roles that we play

And you’ve decided to love me for eternity

I’m still deciding who i want to be today

Cause we both know..