Calm Down - AMB

I’m alone, I’m holding my chrome

And I have become

The only one that sees what is really there

I hate that I’m scared, but who really cares?

I tell 'em and for me all they have is blank stares

And I can just see it now, me jumpin' off the stage right into the crowd

I beat the shit out of a kid and when I got backstage

I licked the blood off my hands that I took from his face

I start to thinkin': why did I just do that?

I got a demon on my shoulder, ain’t no monkey on my back

And this demon’s with my now, she’s writing these rhymes

And only time will tell if I can put her in hell

And it’s swell

People tell me I’m so lucky

Six of the hottest bitches waitin' to fuck me

And I feel pathetic

And the thing’s that’s odd — maybe another vicodin will bring me closer to God

I cannot — Get ahold of myself

Just cannot — Get ahold of myself

I cannot — Get ahold of myself

I have lost control of myself

I’m afraid of the dark and I’m afraid of the light

And I’m afraid that I might’ve killed a motherfucker last night

I don’t know, I’m just somehow bloody

Feels like I just stuck somebody

Bad dreams, I’m crippled in the forehead

I gotta be.

It takes up a lot of me

You probably need a lobotomy (right)

Lookin' in the mirror I scare the shit outta me

And I finally can’t afford no pills

Layin' in the dark, sweatin' out night chills

Night spills into the dawn

Blood spills into the lawn

I don’t wanna go any place anymore

Don’t nobody care about a dumb dead shitty whore

It’s just me, myself, and I

At war with each other until we die

You, you belong to me (it's just me, myself, and I, at war with each other

until we die)

I forever own your sanity (it's just me, myself, and I, at war with each other

until we die)

I feel it in my chest and I can’t breathe

Don’t know what the fuck I need

I try to take all my pills, til they all was gone

It’s just me and myself don’t really get along

I feel it in my head and I can’t see

Start trippin' when the world comes fallin' on me

I got a pain and it spreads through my head

Make friends?

Man, I’d rather just kill you instead

And then nothin' -

I’m gonna be alright

If nobody takes me out than how can my own mind?

I’m gonna fight this, I’m gonna get somebody close

To keep me out of comatose

But then it starts up

I try takin' a breath

Please, God, keep me away from death

My life, I can’t see bein' a very long ride

Insanity won the fight so I’ll die tonight

I cannot — Get ahold of myself

Just cannot — Get ahold of myself

I cannot — Get ahold of myself

I have lost control of myself

Boom!

It’s been four years of decline

The mind can’t exist alone on rewind

But nothin' happens anymore to me

Nothin' that I wanna store as a memory

Livin' alone, hidin' in the back room

Four times a day a run the vacuum

It’s dirt outside tryin' to make it’s way in

I gives a fuck if you feel what I’m sayin'

I’m over-powered in the head by emotions

A terrifying sadness with panic explosions

I tried prayin', but I conjured a demon

It’s head popped outta my chest and started screamin'

«You, you belong to me!»

I tried prayin', but I conjured a demon

It’s head popped outta my chest and started screamin'

«I forever own your sanity»

I tried prayin', but I conjured a demon.

I cannot — Get ahold of myself

Just cannot — Get ahold of myself

I cannot — Get ahold of myself

I have lost control of myself