Ruin It - Alkaline Trio

I’ve waited a long time for this life\nJust to ruin it, so please don’t ruin this for me\nYes to understand this lie\nHell I crossed those t’s\nI scratched out all these eyes, myself last night\nWhat I promise not to find\nSo this is what I’m looking like these days\nI’m all grown up, so full of hate\nBut I don’t wanna let go of my rage\nCause it’s the salt, that brings the taste\nSo where am I to decide that I’m not right?\nCause I might break and I might bend\nYour heart strings out of tune again\nAnd I might try to apologize\nOn a good day\nOn my best day\nIf you stick around\nDid I stay inside to sterilize this knife?\nAm I being to careful?\nDoes this seem right?\nDid I open up the shades to expose the sunny rays?\nTo show what burned there inside\nTake a close look\nHold me right up to the light\nCause I might break and I might bend\nYour heart strings out of tune again\nAnd I might try to apologize\nOn a good day\nOn my best day\nIf you stick around\nI’ve waited for so long\n(I've waited for so long)\nSpread me out, rake me in\nThis scorched and rocky field\nWill camouflage my skin\nAnd I might break and I might bend\nYour heart strings out of tune again\nAnd I might try to apologize\nOn a good day\nOn my best day\nIf you stick around