Trying to Pass off Playing Merge Games as a Form of Meditation - Crywank

I try to find a way to fix what feels like nature so it stuck

Hard to embrace what cannot change when it just makes you feel fucked

Some pains they felt they managed after so long unaddressed

When I’m alone too long I find these feelings were all repressed

Hold my nose and breath and swallow, Three

My chest bubbles up with escapees

Go twice more and body does so please

Then release

And so the method helps you go return to memorized routines

So I am pacified by reminders of times my mind was bleak

Sure not cured, but scratching is the safest inbetween

Just to get me through this moment, this hour, this day, this week

Tap legs, tug hair, smoke and stairs, scream

Meditation seems too hard for me

Repetition helps these hard thoughts breathe

So now reprieve

Sow contemplation into self-flagellation easily

I beat myself up, but I’m not speaking metaphysically

The existential dread debilitated wisdom’s frequency

So I need coping mechanisms to still live peacefully

Hiccups, yawns, and counting games I need

Record-breaking swallow best indeed

Reasoning fidget behavior they read

Is hyperbole